broken

I think i broke someone's heart.
I don't know if I lost a friend. I don't know anything. I don't know why I have to wait, I don't know why I can't just tell them that I have a boyfriend, I don't know why I don't like to be seen together, I don't know why I refused an offer.

Two weeks ago some guy sked me for my number. He looked weird and I said no and kept walking my dog.

This week, through the course of five days, grew close, fell, questioned, fled, and died.

and i don't know why.