i need somebody to love (me)

Ok, so I do have friends at my new school. I hang out with philip and victoria mostly, and they're awesome and we have a lot of fun. Travis calls me panda bear and gives me hugs sometimes... inside joke... and patrick and i are always paired up together... but I don't know if we're friends, it's hard to see through him he's such a crazy kid. I know everyone else, i get a high five from lucas when i wear my modest mouse shirt, i chat on deviantART with Mariah. And i still have my japanese school buddies, alex follows me around and talks to me. Tonight at the choir performance i waved to ben, talked with eric, high-fived philip and talked to him a little. i said hi to ehren but i don't think he recognized me >.<... so yeah. with all these peeps, why do i feel... lonely? i guess i look at people's myspaces and stuff and all their comments are about how awesome each other are and things like that. everyone seems to know everybody else intimately, and i feel like i'm hanging on the edge, not really there. i have brief spells of feeling content with my limited friends, but philip and victoria hate the school and are trying to leave to go back to the main high school... what am i going to do when they leave? it took me a month to find them, and i've tried to become closer friends with other people but i haven't made any progress. maybe i don't try hard enough, or i need to push myself into their circles more. or back off or something i don't know. people are so different, and i miss bailey and ashley and katie and hannah. so yeah.