meh

so today sucked... in a passive agressive sort of way, I suppose. Disappointments add up. I feel like such a loser. I'm behind on my reading and journaling homework... but I have the highest grade in both the classes that I have to do it in. I don't think i can go to australia for school next year - i didn't sign up fast enough, and Australia is all filled up. I was so looking forward to that, but I can't now. I guess I can go senior year... but i really wanted to go next year.
the people i most want to be friends with are the hardest to befriend.
my days seem to go from extreme highs to extreme lows. Some days i feel lucky and happy and loved and excited for tomorrow, and the next day I feel blah. unloved, unnoticed, out of the loop.
which really just makes me feel like a dork. :P