Neah-kah-nie speech & debate tournament 2007!

yesterday's speech & debate tournament was up there with my top five most fun days EVER. ^__^
I would go into detail but it was so complex i don't feel like typing it out. :D
it was a looong drive to the tournament, starting at 5 in the morning, but it was so worth it! I love my speech & debate teammates to death, they all rock. ^_^
Eric came in first in after-dinner speech, it was so HILARIOUS! Al B. came in first for Radio, his was also hilarious. Other teammates won other things, too. it was great! ^_^ Thomas and I won one public debate out of three, but they were all against Open and we were Novice, so we did really well.
The tournament, in honor of halloween next week, was a costume contest as well... I wore my genie costume from last year, it worked out well but i was freaking COLD in round 2 debate... so I stole Eric's sweater until I could find mine again. Thomas was a ninja, Michelle was a pirate, Becca was a ladybug, Spencer was Mr. Rogers (LOL! he kept cussing and doing very un-Mr. ROger-like things, which we gave him a hard time about :D) Eric and Michael didn't wear costumes, they just wore their suits.. michael claimed to be James Bond. Al B. had an awesome costume, he should have won the contest: he had board shorts on and his very baggy jeans were literally at his knees the whole day. he had on a black sweater with bones and skulls aligning with his actual body, a bowler hat with a paper gold crown and a feather on it, and a large wall clock on a huge chain around his neck. his t-shirt said "flava". it was hilarious. He also cut hishair; he was bored, apparently. We told people that he dressed like that every day, it was funny. Actually, he usually wears more normal jeans and a plaid suit...coat. jacket. whatever. Al B. rocks.

Our Speech & Debate garden gnome mascot: we only lost him once, we thought he'd been stolen again like he had been in the past but it turned out Spencer had just taken him with him downstairs, so after several announcements made by Eric in the cafeteria to the 200 other people there, it turned out he hadn't been stolen after all. btw, our gnome says on the bottom in sharpie "if you steal our gnome, we'll kick your ass". no one belives us...

sooo yeah. I lurv speech & debate sooo much!

i need somebody to love (me)

Ok, so I do have friends at my new school. I hang out with philip and victoria mostly, and they're awesome and we have a lot of fun. Travis calls me panda bear and gives me hugs sometimes... inside joke... and patrick and i are always paired up together... but I don't know if we're friends, it's hard to see through him he's such a crazy kid. I know everyone else, i get a high five from lucas when i wear my modest mouse shirt, i chat on deviantART with Mariah. And i still have my japanese school buddies, alex follows me around and talks to me. Tonight at the choir performance i waved to ben, talked with eric, high-fived philip and talked to him a little. i said hi to ehren but i don't think he recognized me >.<... so yeah. with all these peeps, why do i feel... lonely? i guess i look at people's myspaces and stuff and all their comments are about how awesome each other are and things like that. everyone seems to know everybody else intimately, and i feel like i'm hanging on the edge, not really there. i have brief spells of feeling content with my limited friends, but philip and victoria hate the school and are trying to leave to go back to the main high school... what am i going to do when they leave? it took me a month to find them, and i've tried to become closer friends with other people but i haven't made any progress. maybe i don't try hard enough, or i need to push myself into their circles more. or back off or something i don't know. people are so different, and i miss bailey and ashley and katie and hannah. so yeah.

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ok, so if anyone actually read my blog, they might notice that my last post made little to no sense. Just bear with me. Also, the person who asked me for my number has nothing to do with anything else in the post.

broken

I think i broke someone's heart.
I don't know if I lost a friend. I don't know anything. I don't know why I have to wait, I don't know why I can't just tell them that I have a boyfriend, I don't know why I don't like to be seen together, I don't know why I refused an offer.

Two weeks ago some guy sked me for my number. He looked weird and I said no and kept walking my dog.

This week, through the course of five days, grew close, fell, questioned, fled, and died.

and i don't know why.

hikyuu...

My kitty of the past few years, Hikyuu, my baby who is evil and doesn't like anyone. My parents say we are going to get rid of her, we have to, because she marks her territory around the house on a daily basis. she pees on everything she can reach.

i don't want her to go, i love her, but we can't have a cat that pees all over the place.

I've never not had a cat. We had Pilgrim when I was born, and before he died we picked up Hikyuu out of our backyard.

my mom bought a can of "feliway" but now for some reason won't use it.

does anybody want a cat that pees everywhere and hates everyone?

no.

what am i going to do? nobody wanted her when we found her, and now nobody will want her anyway.